depression ain't easy

Every day is a struggle. Last night when I went to bed I thought; gee, tomorrow I'm going to wake up, jump out of bed and begin my day! Yeah. Again, here it is; 5:45 a.m. the alarm goes off and I turn over hit the off button and go back to sleep. Just another 30 minutes; by the time I wake again 90 mimutes have gone by. Two hours later I finally wake up and get out of bed only because I have to go to the bathroom. I want to go back to bed but I know I will not be able to sleep; I am wishing I could so I won't have to face the day. Make some coffee; that will halp. Maybe I can get some things accomplished. My whole apartment is a mess. I feel completely overwhelmed. "You have to just start with one thing" I tell myself. One step at a time I remember. Drag your butt into the shower and get dressed first. Okay, here I go.